hejla :)
tule je ena pesem, ki sem jo za foro napisala. nism neki pro v angleščini ampak upam da je vrei <3

What do I feel right now?

While making a long eye contact
and trying to last the longest I can?
Knowing that it doesn't count as attract
when she will always look for a man.
I don't mind, I wish her the best
and I truly know that she deserves him.
I don't mind but I want it to be my test,
my test to go through it and swim,
swim through my thoughts
which will never let me like him.

What do I feel
when she talks about stuff,
her favourite things.
I feel just rough.
But why does it have to be so hard
to let her live a normal and happy life,
to finally stop my heart
from holding and using a knife
to stab my own soul
so hard that it almost destroyes me
and makes me want to throw-

Stop.
Maybe I know what I feel.
I feel like my thoughts are wanting me dead,
but I don't understand how would it be to kill
and I don't even want to know,
which is driving me mad.
Am I going insane
or am I just overreacting?
The first one has never came
and I hope that it never does
and that she hopes the same.

Knowing my feelings will always be far away
and I think I'll never really understand them.
Telling her about it isn't a good way
to end a friendship like that
and have no words left to say.
If I ask myself once again;
what do I feel inside?
I still don't know the answer
but I promise not just her but everyone
to find a way to stay by her side.


dobro sm, hvala :)
(ne si mislit da sem zdej neki psiho sam rada pišem pesmi)
~fleur